"Coulda" and "shoulda" won't get me anywhere now, but it's obviously time to go. It has been, and I've let myself believe there was more because I was afraid. Afraid of change. Afraid of new. Afraid of me.
One of my favorite movie quotes is from Fried Green Tomatoes: "Miss Ruth was a lady, and a lady always knows when to leave." Time for me to get back to being a lady, quit giving into fear, embrace the hurt and get on with what's next.